Gabe is the most amazing, thoughtful man I've ever met... I'm incredibly grateful at how well he knows me (and I him) and how he just knows how to take care of me, and calm me down.
I'm grateful to be carrying our daughter - from the second I met him, I KNEW he'd be an amazing Dad, and she is getting so many gifts from both of us, but I think she'll get his intuition and sensitivities, as they are stronger than mine (at least right now)...and they've been stronger since he's moved down - like our strengths are stronger when we're together (does that make sense?).
I'm grateful to have the most amazing parents. It took me moving to VA, living alone, and surviving my first husband's suicide for my dad to be more open about his feelings... you should read the notes on the backs of the photos in his wallet! They are SO emotional and loving - I get leaky-eyed just thinking about it!
I'm grateful that my brother is 8.5 years older and I've seen what he's struggled with - and it's made me make wiser choices. I loveloveLOVE him with my whole heart and soul - and I could NOT have picked a better brother. He gave me a beautiful niece and a handsome nephew - both of whom I love so very, very much.
I'm grateful to Gabe for saving my life. He's done it more than once. It started in the weeks after the suicide, and it keeps going. He kept me from going fully to the darkest parts of my soul... from ending my own life, more than once. I just look at him and know that my life means something. He's made me change my past destructive behaviors (think: cutting, etc) and made me see that they don't do me any good, and seeing the scars would only make me feel worse down the road. He's healed so many parts of my heart and soul... he's closed up wounds, smoothed over the roughest scars, and he even made some scars disappear - I don't need them anymore.
I can never fully thank him for everything he's done for me... but I try to, a little bit every day.
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