Ever since she was born, I've loved being her mom... now, everything out of my mouth is fucking "gaslighting".
I fucking quit tramadol. Quitting pain pills was probably one of the hardest things I've ever done. I may have had kratom and cbd/thc to assist the quit, but I still felt like absolute shit, and it still took me a long, long time to feel myself again. Then she stops going to school. I can do nothing to get her out of bed, and it drags me down. I usually LOVE the routine of putting on my makeup in the mornings, getting ready with her... but with her staying home, I often feel like WTF is the point of it all? What the fuck was the point of quitting pills? Maybe I should find them and take a handful.
