I got the cervical check today - still all closed up!
Also got the beta strep test ...none of it was fun, but the qtip is much nicer than the hand! My doc did apologize for the pain, and said "you were the one complaining about the BH" ...lol.
BP was 126/73 - he was SHOCKED at my BP! I don't remember exactly what he said... something like, "you're hanging in there, BP is good, surprisingly" .. wtf?! Am I supposed to have high BP just because I'm 8mos prego AND obese??? Not always doc! Especially when I've been better about my diet and my meds... not so much the diet today - biscuit sammich & OJ for brkfast and pb&j for lunch.
Val's heartrate was 135, and the doppler kept picking up mine, too....made it sound like her heart was skipping beats.
More of the same next week, I'm sure... I've really gotten used to my Wednesday appointments, but the office is closed for whatever reason next Weds, so I have to miss even MORE time at work by going in at 230 on Thursday... I'll just have to see if I can take 1/2 a vacay day... the 40-45 minutes I miss by having my 4pm appt on Weds is super easy to make up - 3+ hours is not so easy to make up...mostly because I refuse to work through my lunch for 3 days...hell to the no! I spend enough time there during the week anyway. :D
So that's my 35-weeker ladies - all is well ... here's hoping for a negative GBS outcome.
We also finished our registration for the hospital stay and paid the $107 that I owed! woohoo! I'm really glad I pre-registered online... I only had to sign 4 forms and pay the balance of my deductible... the online forms? 9 or so pages... hell - my hand would have killed me! lol... but it's all done now - ready for blast off! ...I just wish my apartment was ready.
After the doc & hospital stuff, Gabe and I went to eat at Beijing chinese buffet....haven't been in a while...and damn, it was good!
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
I'm grateful for... (orig post on Pregfo)
Gabe is the most amazing, thoughtful man I've ever met... I'm incredibly grateful at how well he knows me (and I him) and how he just knows how to take care of me, and calm me down.
I'm grateful to be carrying our daughter - from the second I met him, I KNEW he'd be an amazing Dad, and she is getting so many gifts from both of us, but I think she'll get his intuition and sensitivities, as they are stronger than mine (at least right now)...and they've been stronger since he's moved down - like our strengths are stronger when we're together (does that make sense?).
I'm grateful to have the most amazing parents. It took me moving to VA, living alone, and surviving my first husband's suicide for my dad to be more open about his feelings... you should read the notes on the backs of the photos in his wallet! They are SO emotional and loving - I get leaky-eyed just thinking about it!
I'm grateful that my brother is 8.5 years older and I've seen what he's struggled with - and it's made me make wiser choices. I loveloveLOVE him with my whole heart and soul - and I could NOT have picked a better brother. He gave me a beautiful niece and a handsome nephew - both of whom I love so very, very much.
I'm grateful to Gabe for saving my life. He's done it more than once. It started in the weeks after the suicide, and it keeps going. He kept me from going fully to the darkest parts of my soul... from ending my own life, more than once. I just look at him and know that my life means something. He's made me change my past destructive behaviors (think: cutting, etc) and made me see that they don't do me any good, and seeing the scars would only make me feel worse down the road. He's healed so many parts of my heart and soul... he's closed up wounds, smoothed over the roughest scars, and he even made some scars disappear - I don't need them anymore.
I can never fully thank him for everything he's done for me... but I try to, a little bit every day.
I'm grateful to be carrying our daughter - from the second I met him, I KNEW he'd be an amazing Dad, and she is getting so many gifts from both of us, but I think she'll get his intuition and sensitivities, as they are stronger than mine (at least right now)...and they've been stronger since he's moved down - like our strengths are stronger when we're together (does that make sense?).
I'm grateful to have the most amazing parents. It took me moving to VA, living alone, and surviving my first husband's suicide for my dad to be more open about his feelings... you should read the notes on the backs of the photos in his wallet! They are SO emotional and loving - I get leaky-eyed just thinking about it!
I'm grateful that my brother is 8.5 years older and I've seen what he's struggled with - and it's made me make wiser choices. I loveloveLOVE him with my whole heart and soul - and I could NOT have picked a better brother. He gave me a beautiful niece and a handsome nephew - both of whom I love so very, very much.
I'm grateful to Gabe for saving my life. He's done it more than once. It started in the weeks after the suicide, and it keeps going. He kept me from going fully to the darkest parts of my soul... from ending my own life, more than once. I just look at him and know that my life means something. He's made me change my past destructive behaviors (think: cutting, etc) and made me see that they don't do me any good, and seeing the scars would only make me feel worse down the road. He's healed so many parts of my heart and soul... he's closed up wounds, smoothed over the roughest scars, and he even made some scars disappear - I don't need them anymore.
I can never fully thank him for everything he's done for me... but I try to, a little bit every day.
Monday, May 18, 2009
The dreams have started again.. I can't freakin' believe it!!!
Seriously? I love having vivid, detailed dreams, but couldn't they be of lighter topics than the end of the world and my apt getting broken into while I'm home alone???
Friday or Saturday night, I can't remember now, I had the lava bomb dream again... I had it in the first trimester, and it scared the SHIT outta me. This time, there was no foot-deep ash on the ground... there was the HUGE boom overhead (imagine an M-80 going off), and then when we went outside, there was glowing ashes falling to the ground, hitting the house... and I was off to grab the hose again.
I also had the "fridge won't close" dream. My fridge is top & bottom, and both doors would NOT close, no matter how many times Gabe and I closed them. There was nothing propping them open; they closed easily... and then would just open again. Just barely. Not enough to turn on the light in the fridge... I nearly started screaming "get out of my house!" again.
Last night or this morning, I dreamed that my front door opened (I could see the light from the door opening), and that I heard voices - or WAS it a dream? It could very well have been people outside my bedroom window... well, then, I woke up to hearing a middle-aged man's voice say "I'll take care of it myself" ... WTF??? ...and I could see him (behind me-again, dream?) taking off a pair of black leather gloves. I turned over and there was nobody there... unwanted energy, perhaps? I don't know, but I was freaking out... I got instantly cold all over and broke out into a sweat - NOT a good feeling when all I'm trying to do is get some sleep so I can work today...
I already don't like the idea of being home alone at night while Gabe's working... I would just about rather go over to my parents' house to sleep - especially after that last dream. Fuck - if the apt gets broken into, we have renters' insurance to replace anything that gets stolen, but that doesn't cover feelings of security, which one should most definitely have at home. I've NEVER been robbed - and I want to keep it that way... my car got broken into last September (along with 40 others), but nothing was taken.
Gabe said he'd investigate the energies at home...and he said he did feel something, like dust, that it felt like a middle-aged man WAS in the apartment - or at least the energy of one - and that it was likely a mistake, that he'd popped in on the wrong person... definitely need to up my barriers again. I can't stand that scared feeling when I'm trying to sleep.
It doesn't help that when Gabe & Pat were cleaning up and throwing stuff out, they threw away the big Bose speakers that I'd been using as a barricade of sorts against the front door. It was a small measure of security for me...but that thing was HEAVY!!! *sigh*
Friday or Saturday night, I can't remember now, I had the lava bomb dream again... I had it in the first trimester, and it scared the SHIT outta me. This time, there was no foot-deep ash on the ground... there was the HUGE boom overhead (imagine an M-80 going off), and then when we went outside, there was glowing ashes falling to the ground, hitting the house... and I was off to grab the hose again.
I also had the "fridge won't close" dream. My fridge is top & bottom, and both doors would NOT close, no matter how many times Gabe and I closed them. There was nothing propping them open; they closed easily... and then would just open again. Just barely. Not enough to turn on the light in the fridge... I nearly started screaming "get out of my house!" again.
Last night or this morning, I dreamed that my front door opened (I could see the light from the door opening), and that I heard voices - or WAS it a dream? It could very well have been people outside my bedroom window... well, then, I woke up to hearing a middle-aged man's voice say "I'll take care of it myself" ... WTF??? ...and I could see him (behind me-again, dream?) taking off a pair of black leather gloves. I turned over and there was nobody there... unwanted energy, perhaps? I don't know, but I was freaking out... I got instantly cold all over and broke out into a sweat - NOT a good feeling when all I'm trying to do is get some sleep so I can work today...
I already don't like the idea of being home alone at night while Gabe's working... I would just about rather go over to my parents' house to sleep - especially after that last dream. Fuck - if the apt gets broken into, we have renters' insurance to replace anything that gets stolen, but that doesn't cover feelings of security, which one should most definitely have at home. I've NEVER been robbed - and I want to keep it that way... my car got broken into last September (along with 40 others), but nothing was taken.
Gabe said he'd investigate the energies at home...and he said he did feel something, like dust, that it felt like a middle-aged man WAS in the apartment - or at least the energy of one - and that it was likely a mistake, that he'd popped in on the wrong person... definitely need to up my barriers again. I can't stand that scared feeling when I'm trying to sleep.
It doesn't help that when Gabe & Pat were cleaning up and throwing stuff out, they threw away the big Bose speakers that I'd been using as a barricade of sorts against the front door. It was a small measure of security for me...but that thing was HEAVY!!! *sigh*
Thursday, May 14, 2009
33 week update
So, went back to doc yesterday - very uneventful appointment, which is GOOD!
BP was 133/80 which he's very happy about, considering it was much higher last week. Baby's heartrate was 130 - normal... and my uterus is measuring RIGHT up to my ribs... also normal, but no wonder heartburn's been killing me!
Everything's good and I go back in 2 weeks... I'll be 35 weeks then - OY!
This past Sunday, on Mother's Day, Gabe and I married at my parents' house in the front yard, and Raven officiated. The ceremony she wrote for us was incredibly beautiful, and all three of us were in tears - very emotional indeed. The pics are up in my photo albums.
We have our Preparing for Childbirth class on Saturday - ick, it's allll dayyyy loooong! 9-5, in the Woodlands... so much for a day off! lol
Tomorrow, we're taking Pat to HMNS to see the Genghis Khan exhibit - wanted to see the Terra Cotta Warriors, too, but that opens NEXT Friday. I'm pretty sure Gabe and I will go see it eventually... :)
BP was 133/80 which he's very happy about, considering it was much higher last week. Baby's heartrate was 130 - normal... and my uterus is measuring RIGHT up to my ribs... also normal, but no wonder heartburn's been killing me!
Everything's good and I go back in 2 weeks... I'll be 35 weeks then - OY!
This past Sunday, on Mother's Day, Gabe and I married at my parents' house in the front yard, and Raven officiated. The ceremony she wrote for us was incredibly beautiful, and all three of us were in tears - very emotional indeed. The pics are up in my photo albums.
We have our Preparing for Childbirth class on Saturday - ick, it's allll dayyyy loooong! 9-5, in the Woodlands... so much for a day off! lol
Tomorrow, we're taking Pat to HMNS to see the Genghis Khan exhibit - wanted to see the Terra Cotta Warriors, too, but that opens NEXT Friday. I'm pretty sure Gabe and I will go see it eventually... :)
Thursday, May 7, 2009
32 week update
So, I went back to the doc yesterday for my 32 week appt... and he was doing a C-section, so I got to see the midwife, Kari, whom I adore!
BP was up where it shouldn't be - 140/90, so now I have to try and take my meds 3x/day on a regular basis, instead of here and there... so, because of the BP, I have to go every freakin week instead of every other week...
...this kinda pisses me off, but mostly it's because I have to work through one lunch/week and some combination of coming in early or cutting short my lunch hour to make up the time... ugh!
Kari also said that he might do another ultrasound in the next two weeks to check for growth - I'm not complaining! Any more time I get to see Val on screen, I'm happy!
She said the goal is to keep her cookin until at least 38 weeks ... which puts me at June 17th/18th - fine by me! That's when I WANT her born! I'm trying to telepathically psych her up so she wants it too! I said June 18th at the last ultrasound... 6 weeks is all that's left.
I also got word from the hospital this week that I only have to pay $107 to the hospital to meet my deductible - after that, everything is 100% covered. I'll go do that after one of the next appointments - don't have the cash right now. (If people that owed me money would pay me back, I would.)
Right now, my allergies are giving me hell... not the sinus-based allergies, but skin allergies! I can't wear my engagement ring b/c of the contact dermatitis! My left ring finger is SOOOO irritated and red, itchy & gross ... and I can't wear my ring until it clears up! This just started in the last month, and I've been wearing this ring since December 22nd. I hope it starts to go away soon - gotta be able to get both my rings on this Sunday. :)
BP was up where it shouldn't be - 140/90, so now I have to try and take my meds 3x/day on a regular basis, instead of here and there... so, because of the BP, I have to go every freakin week instead of every other week...
...this kinda pisses me off, but mostly it's because I have to work through one lunch/week and some combination of coming in early or cutting short my lunch hour to make up the time... ugh!
Kari also said that he might do another ultrasound in the next two weeks to check for growth - I'm not complaining! Any more time I get to see Val on screen, I'm happy!
She said the goal is to keep her cookin until at least 38 weeks ... which puts me at June 17th/18th - fine by me! That's when I WANT her born! I'm trying to telepathically psych her up so she wants it too! I said June 18th at the last ultrasound... 6 weeks is all that's left.
I also got word from the hospital this week that I only have to pay $107 to the hospital to meet my deductible - after that, everything is 100% covered. I'll go do that after one of the next appointments - don't have the cash right now. (If people that owed me money would pay me back, I would.)
Right now, my allergies are giving me hell... not the sinus-based allergies, but skin allergies! I can't wear my engagement ring b/c of the contact dermatitis! My left ring finger is SOOOO irritated and red, itchy & gross ... and I can't wear my ring until it clears up! This just started in the last month, and I've been wearing this ring since December 22nd. I hope it starts to go away soon - gotta be able to get both my rings on this Sunday. :)
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